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[Apr. 11th, 2009|01:06 am] |
It's been eight long months since I last made any post to this journal and I've done a lot in that time.
Late last year I publicly announced my infection with HIV and I won't go into that any more here but you can find the full statement on my website. (It was contracted after I left the industry though and that's really all you need to know about the details of it.) I am healthy and strong and have no plans to stop living my life exactly how I choose to. Roxanne D'Winter is stronger than any virus and I'm still safe to hug at conventions.
The second big change is that in the last four months I have left my job as a dancer at Blue Monday and travelled to Los Angeles to discuss my business future with some people there. After much talk and money changing hands, I am happy to say that I am returning to the adult movie industry, not as a performer but as a director.
My first film was today and starred the talents of Wren (AVN Starlet of the Year winner!), Nikki Jayne, Sandie Caine and Michelle Thorne. It was a lot of fun and all the girls were really into it. The film is Bedroom Eyes 4 and I can't yet tell you when it will be showing up.
A movie I can tell you about is The Fairer Sex, a recent American documentary about the female influence on pornography, women of note within the industry, and how the power balance has been shifting over the last ten years. It's a fascinating movie and I mention it as well because I am one of the interviews in it. That will be coming out soon and you should all see it.
I've also been working on my own plans for a company that sets up experienced women in the adult industry with those starting out, in an attempt to teach them about the business and how not to be exploited. Many girls don't really understand what they're truly getting into when contracts and cameras are being pushed into their faces and they can be psychologically damaged by the whole thing. I don't want that sort of thing to keep happening. In fact, I'm determined to stop the cycle of it. Women need the strength to learn where their lines are and not to cross them, even with some pushy director demanding it.
There is fine print to be ironed out and legal things to be worked though, not to mention the problems I'm having with funding. (Most of it is being self funded at this point, and though I have money setting up this sort of operation isn't cheap.)
If you'd like to learn more about that the website for it is residing at Safe Sex UK. There is little more there at the moment than a mission statement as well as sponsors and contact info, but once this is ready then there will be more. |
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| Wren |
[Aug. 11th, 2008|04:18 pm] |
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The service for Cinders was, I think, something she would have found really touching. It was a testament to how many people she's meant something to.
And now, in the spirit of Cinders, I carry on. I introduce you now to Wren, who has been signed on an exclusive contract with Digital Playground UK.
(Signing with DP is, I would like to tell you, is a big deal. DP is really the forerunner in porn these days, especially after making Pirates and it's sequel. DP UK is a newer branch of the company but no less impressive.) Wren is nineteen years old and studying psychology at university.
Wren will be filming her first movie with them this week and I'm going to be on set to make sure nothing goes badly, although I doubt it will.
( Lee clothes under the cut but still worksafe )
I get the feeling she's going to go far. |
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| Friends only |
[Jul. 30th, 2008|09:48 pm] |
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This week I've been asked to speak at the funeral of one of my mentors, as well as being asked to be a mentor of sorts to a girl who has just entered the industry.
Circle of life, huh? |
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| Cinders le Fae |
[Jul. 28th, 2008|04:20 pm] |
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Cinders le Fae has been murdered. I can't believe this. Cinders... No, I have no words for what that woman meant to me and to dozens of other girls who worked within the porn industry. She was a mother to us, a guiding hand and a sheltering wing. She was an amazing woman. I hope whoever did this horrible thing is found and put away forever for taking her from this world.
I can't put anything into words.
You'll never be forgotten, Cinders. You were a pioneer to women in this industry, proof that we didn't have to be tools of male sexuality, that we could instead control it all ourselves. You inspired me to enter the industry. You were one of the most incredible women I ever met. You were a legend.
( Cinders le Fae ) |
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| Filtered to Misha |
[Jul. 3rd, 2008|11:53 pm] |
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Misha, how did your meeting with my agent go? |
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[May. 9th, 2008|09:33 pm] |
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I was searching through my kitchen cupboards and found stores of foods I'd forgotten about that are still good. So I hope everyone really likes twiglets...
If you're wanting to drink tonight during the movie you'll have to BYO since I've got nothing in the house.
I'm even going to hoover the living room before you all get here. |
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| Friends Only |
[May. 6th, 2008|06:55 pm] |
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Hey kids? Practise extra extra safe sex. Measuring your days by medications? Not awesome.
And now that my boring whining/health service announcement is over, lets think about the more important things in life. Like B grade action films based on video games.
Pierre, find yourself a baby sitter because I shall except no excuse for you to miss this. After all, you're the one who will most appreciate that Roxanne D'Winter does almost all her own stunts. I say almost because they wouldn't let me actually jump off the side of a building, but all the fighting? Totally me. Many thanks to the Sensei.
I'm going to be showing it here on Friday night, starting about eight? If I had a working scanner I'd show you all the cover because it's amazing. And by amazing I mean tacky and awesome. |
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[Apr. 29th, 2008|08:02 pm] |
I'm a movie star. No, not those other movies, but ones that pretend they aren't all about sex but really are anyway. Yes, Masks & Martyrs, the modern classic, will be available to rent from all terrible video stores next week. Since they don't know how many places in London are actually going to stock it, they're sending my my own DVD to own forever.
I think this deserves a celebration. Not a party or anything, but certainly a group viewing. I was there so I already know all the wonders and horrors to be found but the rest of you don't... yet.
Once I have the DVD I'll work out a date. |
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| PRIVATE |
[Apr. 22nd, 2008|06:07 pm] |
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I AM SO HORNY I THINK I'M GOING TO DIE!
Do you think it's possible? The scientists may say no, but I say it's completely possible. I am suffering without sex. I don't think I'd really noticed before how much of it I have.
Stupid damn aids. |
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| Friends Only |
[Apr. 3rd, 2008|02:29 am] |
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Time for me to come clean. I've told a few people this, but mostly it was only those it concerned directly. But now I feel like if I don't mention it then all I'm doing it hiding it. And hiding things is no good because they always come out when you least want them to.
A few months ago I got a HIV test because I always get tested regularly. This time it came back positive. Luckily I haven't passed it on to anyone although, even after a lot of calls and run around, I still don't know who I picked it up from. Two of the people I'd slept with in the time between tests were uncontactable.
So there it is. I have HIV. |
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[Mar. 10th, 2008|10:43 pm] |
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Tonight I have three hours of work followed by a birthday party for one of the Blue Monday girls.
If I die of exhaustion please bury me with my red stilettos... |
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| LiveJournal was MADE for cryptic posts. |
[Feb. 20th, 2008|10:04 pm] |
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I'm exhausted. I didn't manage to get any sleep at all last night and instead spent it awake and thinking about things. I got some really bad news the other day and while I'm not really ready to talk about that yet, I'm using here to vent about how shite I currently feel.
To make my tiredness worse I have to go to work in an hour. (I've arranged to pick up more hours at Blue Monday as I'm needing more money. Fun fun fun.)
I've gone through some tough things in my life and now there's new tough stuff. But I've made it through everything else and so now this is just another thing I'll work out. I'm just incredibly stressed so if I snap at anyone here's my apology ahead of time. |
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| Filtered to Renee |
[Feb. 20th, 2008|12:36 am] |
I don't know what to do with this, so I'm just going to come right out and say it without fucking around.
I'm HIV+ |
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| Fetish Ball! |
[Jan. 16th, 2008|02:15 am] |
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Hope everyone who went along had a BLAST. I did! I only have on photo from the night and it's not even from the actual event, just one that Jean took of me before hand. I hope there are some photos of my fire show somewhere...
( Naughty nurse! ) |
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[Jan. 13th, 2008|09:59 pm] |
I'm so uncreative. I'm a PVC-clad nurse :) |
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[Jan. 3rd, 2008|03:22 am] |
Finding an outfit for the fetish ball next Sunday is proving to be entirely taxing and I am seriously considering going wearing ( this ) I'm only half joking. Outfit choosing is hard and I should have done it months ago, especially if I'm planning on actually making it. I think it will have to be off the rack instead.
I'm a little tipsy and too high from work. So I think while I eat this bad service station sausage roll, I'm going to upload photos.
( Gratuitous Roxy ) |
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[Nov. 25th, 2007|11:55 pm] |
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( It's official! )
Line up isn't final as they tend to not have the guest lists sorted until almost on the day. Have to keep everyone guessing.
More info can be found at www.londonfetishball.com |
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[Oct. 31st, 2007|02:19 am] |
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I am DRUNK and now I am at WORK
Hahahaha that RHYMED. |
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